School's done.. yey for freedom

Wohoo! ONE week for my school research deadline and then it is FINISHED! Well, almost.

One week of hell.. and I'm almost -AAALMOOST- done. Oh god when this is over.. I don't want to know or hear anything about school again for a long time!

Laura - I haven't forgotten the me-me thing, I don't have time


About the art - as always, I scetch I never finish ... Haven't even have time for THAT >_<

I'm having lots of trouble with my art.. and writing.. and everything...


I'm trying to finish school at the moment, writing horrible bachelor-degree research and it is KILLING ME!!!! It's about "organization internal communication process" (the ways people communicate with one-another, the mediums and channels they use etc) and I am SO FAR BEHIND my schedule that it makes me cry! It has to be finished by the 21th April, I still have 38 days and I'm only half way trough, PLUS the hardest part is just ahead - the actual research (questionnaire) and analysis part! *keeps telling herself: "i can do this, i can do this!!!!*

About the art - I sketch at work to keep at least some kind of a sanity. That's why most of my work is "unfinished". I only sketch... I don't color them, I don't shade them - nothing! I don't have time for this. And the book... I have these scenes in my head, GORGEOUS scenes which I KNOW that I should write down... yet I don't.. I have enough writing with the damn research : ( Yet I miss my little perfect world with magic, dragons and lovestories.. My book can wait.. I've been writing it since I was 16.. That's almost 8 years Yes, it can wait.. for another 8 years... it can wait.

So.. I decided to put my lovely horse-art-work up on one Estonian website (to share them with others) and now I'm drowning in commission requests! "Please make me a pic of my horse" "can I have one? I'll buy it later" "you are soooo good, can you make me one? pls pls pls" etc etc. Well actually it's a nice moneymaking business-idea. I mean, Estonia is so small and when you draw someone's favorite horse sooner or later they (if not the person that asked you to draw, then someone else will) will buy the picture and I get my busticket money all back (visiting my BF at the other side of the country once a week by bus). Yey for me!


So far - 2 commissions for sure, 4 pending!

God, it's been so long since i last drew something... have to do something about it. I have like 10 pictures in my list that I'd like to paint/draw and finish... and i haven't managed to start a single one.

Tho, I do believe that i might be forced to draw something pretty soon.. my bf is going to the army for 8 months... and I will be pretty lonely during that time. Drawing always has helped me with that. Maybe it will this time too.

I have drawn something in a meanwhile tho. My Warcraft comic. I've always liked to sketch things on small peaces of paper.. jokes and silly situations.. Maybe I should finish and upload them sometime. There is a whole punch of them in my drawer. I've also put aside my book, my little fantasy world I used to live in since the 9th grade (been 6-7 years for now). I put it away like a year ago.. and now, after all that time, they are HAUNTING me! I took a bus home few days ago and - there they were.. all my dear sweet characters from my own little world, taking actions. It was like "boom", an explosion. I've never experienced such inspiration, such energy like that day. I saw a whole new time-line, it messed up so much of my storyline... yet it was so cool, so fantastic.. so.. so.. I can't even explain how exited I was. Whole evening I was thinking... I sat in my livingroom, lights off and listened to the music and just.. things flew trough my head... It was such a rush, like watching a movie. My bf came home tho and cut the inspiration flow. Managed to write down only some little catchwords. Now I can't get them off my head. But where did that come from? It's like they wanted to get out! They just - kicked the door open and came, without asking me weather I want it or now . Can't explain it, but I was surprised. Haven't write down a single line since last summer. And now this..